Day 2

Another night done!!!  It was much harder tonight, I could feel it in my thighs within the first few minutes... but I did do 33 minutes.

It felt so good to do this tonight, especially considering I felt so tired and drained this evening.  I am going to commit to 90 days of exercise, something that is totally doable!  It will be a bit tricky when I go to visit P, but I can makes things work.  I'll be doing what I can to mix up my workouts, so that I'm not bored.  Getting some weight training in will be key as well, but right now it's cardio I need to concentrate on.

Working my way back

It's been an uphill battle getting myself back on track, and I'm still a long way from being there.  I'm making a rule for myself, one that I will not break until I am 100% back on track.

I will not sit down to watch TV until I have completed a workout that day, or I must jump on my elliptical while I watch.

Tonight while watching Fringe I managed to get 35 minutes completed, it was much harder than it should have been.  I have two big events coming up for 2011.

The first one is that Bug wants his birthday party (5th) held at a Wave Pool, which will be in early January.  This means that I will be in a swimsuit around my ex... yuck!  I do and don't care about him seeing me in a swimsuit, but I do want to look good!  I know that I look so much better than the last time he saw me naked, and a swimsuit is as close as he will ever get to seeing me naked again... so I want to look incredible!

The second event is that I am planning a trip to Mexico for some time in April or May.  I still need to speak with my ex about dates, but I'm hopeful that something can be worked out.  I want to look rockin in a bathing suit for that trip!  I want to feel 100% comfortable sitting out on the beach, especially since I will likely be going alone.

One day at a time

Ever get that workout high?  For years and years I looked and waited for it, to no avail.  Last year while going through the most stressful situation I had ever been in (Husband left me for someone 16 years younger than him), I manage to luckily find that workout high.  I would get on my elliptical every night, work my body hard, and get all the anger I had out... it was the best therapy (although I did see a counselor, knew I couldn't handle it completely on my own) I could have asked for.  It could have been that going from such a low throughout the day, to the wonderful rush of endorphins while working out is what eventually led me to find that wonderful, elusive high.  Whatever it was, has led me to this point... enjoying any and all workouts immensely!

If I can keep my momentum up, I am seriously considering working my way towards taking a personal training course.  There is an option through a local university that is online, over two years.  This would set me up perfectly for when my youngest goes to school full time.  I've been thinking long and hard over what I should look at doing when that dreaded day comes.  Whatever I do, needs to worked around the boys school schedule, as I want to be home when they finish for the day.  Something to think about anyways!

I did make it to Boot Camp today!!!  Felt wonderful to push myself!

Bit of a break

I have taken a bit of a break from running, not something I really wanted to do.  Last Monday I was exhausted from a long weekend, then spent the rest of the week feeling off... low and behold, I caught a cold from the boys before the week was out!  I now have just under 5 weeks to my first race, which I know I will complete... it's just how well I'll do that concerns me.

I have a few new goals to meet, as well as a reward!  To get this reward, I need to complete these two things.

1. Get under 135lbs (presently 143)
2. Complete my 5km run in under 30 minutes.

As for my reward... well... it's not something that most people would think of lol.  I am going to get a VCH Piercing.  One stipulation is that it must be after my race in June, not sure how well I'll be able to run right after getting it done ;)

Holy Crap!

Well, it has been some time since I jumped on my elliptical... not such a good thing!  I may be keeping my weight steady, but my endurance is shot to hell.  I can't believe I let this happen the last 4-5 months, especially the last 2 months.  While at my parents house, and then settling into this new house the first few months, it was so much more difficult to get my workouts in... but my excuse for the last 2 months is not good enough.

With a meeting tomorrow night, and a few late nights for my weekend (boys are at their father's hosue), it could be next week before I get a chance to really buckle down again.  I want to get back to where I was in August, and take it so much further too.  Not only do I have the elliptical, I also have a Wii Fit Plus as well.  I also have easier access to the local indoor running track then I did over the summer.  There is no more excuses!!

Trying again

It's been another long dry spell for me, not something I am very happy about.  I am only up a few pounds, but I can feel the definition and strength slowly going away.  I jumped back on the elliptical tonight for 40min, felt wonderful!  I just need to keep this up, no slacking for months at a time.  I am too happy with how I look, I will not allow myself to gain all that weight back.

Not sure if I really have a goal right now, other than to just keep things moving forward with my exercise.  In the New Year I will see how things are going, and see what I can fit in.  I did buy a Wii for Christmas, and of course got the fit board.  I'm anxiously awaiting to try it out, I have heard so many good things about it.

Sick sucks!

Well, the last week I have been sick... it so sucks! Because it is a chest cough, it has meant no exercise for me at all :(. At least my weight has been stable, even with the candy that is still in the house! One week into this cold, and I am already feeling much better.

I have been told a lot lately that I do not need to lose anymore weight, which is something I am struggling to understand. I still would like to lose another 5-10lbs, but I am happy with where I am. I need a lot of toning to really get the shape and definition that I want, but I don't necessarily need to lose weight. Hopefully I find a balance that makes me happy with shape and tone in the next few months, would make me feel just that much better about how I look.

I will say that the attention I have garnered from this has been different LOL. I am not used to so much male attention, but it is kind of nice!

Day 88

Well, things are going, just extremely busy! I will finally be out of the house tomorrow morning, which is extremely good. I am so stressed from this move, I am just grateful that this aspect is finally over.

My eating this week has been absolutely atrocious! I have not had time or the inclination to worry about what goes into my body, and my body is not happy. I am starting to break out a little, not much, but more than I have had the last few months. I have also not had any spare time to workout or run, which is not helping things for me at all. Those workouts were how I relieved all the stress I am under.

I cannot say things will be back to normal the next two weeks, as I will be camping with the boys. But, things will improve. I will not have the crazy stresses I have had the last few weeks, I will have time to eat well, and even time to get walks and possibly runs in. I am hoping that I can run with Little Man in the stroller, while the other two ride their bikes. Not too sure how well it work, but I am optimistic.

Day 82

Just wanted to quickly pop on and let you know I am still around. Just very, very busy getting this house pack up. I am planning on having us out of here this weekend, still lots to do though.

Hopefully next week I will be back on track with my runs.

A little background

I don't know why I am finding it so hard to get back into a good routine of exercise, and eating well???? I know it's not easy, but I don't remember it ever being quite this hard... it's usually keeping it going for any real length of time that I have problems with.

Today, though, I am doing well eating wise! Even though I am hungry right now, I am resisting, as well as drinking water instead.

Okay... enough about excuses, here's some reasons and explanations of what I want. History first.

Until I got married 12 years ago, I never had a weight problem. In fact, for a long time I would say that I was underweight! During high school, and until I was around 21, I weighed around 110lbs... which is not much when you are 5'5". I danced (Ballet, Jazz, Tap) from age 6, until I was 16, typically 6 nights a week. This is one reason I was so thin, always moving, and not much time for food. When I stopped dancing, it was a few years before I started to gain weight.

By the time I was around 21, I was probably around 125lbs, which was a wonderful weight for me. I was confident, happy, and healthy. I met my Hubby when I was 22, and married him 4 months later. I believe I was around 130-135lbs when we tied the knot. It was not hubby's fault that I gained weight, but just circumstances. I really did not know him well at the time, and had moved 2000kms away from my friends and family to be with him!!! I was living way up North, it was very, very cold, I didn't really know my new husband, didn't have a job yet, and found solace in snacking and watching TV.

Within 6 months I had put on around 20lbs, and over the next 7 years I managed to add another 30lbs. Then of course we had our 3 children within 3.5 years. Obviously this didn't help matters, in some ways made it worse... I gained between 50 and 60lbs with each pregnancy, which of course has left me with stretch marked skin that I don't always feel comfortable in.

Now for where I want to be....

I would be ecstatic to be at 135lbs again, it was a wonderful weight for me, not heavy or light, with just the right curves. I want to be there before the end of the year... so I need to lose 50lbs over the next 11 months, a fairly attainable goal.

The following is my biggest obstacles.

• I find that my children exhaust me by the end of the day.
• It isn't always easy to eat properly when I also have to feed three kids, clean up after them, and keep the house clean, especially when hubby is away.
• It doesn't help matters when Hubby buys snack food for himself, especially things that I like.
  

My Reasons for losing this weight.

• I want to have the energy, and ability to keep up with my 3 boys.
• We plan to move to the Mediterranean, and I don't want to feel self conscious in a bathing suit.
• I want to wear clothes in a single digit size!

Some of my excuses seem pretty lame when I type them out like this!!! With Hubby gone these next few weeks, I will concentrate more on my eating than exercise. When he comes back I will have more energy to work on exercise... right now it is all I can do to get through each day with the boys.