Day 3

I decided to try and do a P90X video (Kimbo) with my boys yesterday afternoon... let's just say it was a cluster f**k!  They decided to trash the house, run around like monsters, and in general drive me up the wall!!!  I did not finish the last 10 minutes, as I needed to get dinner on the table early for soccer night.  I'll keep trying, but it might take time... :(

So, I did 35 minutes of a good workout last night, I think the P90X videos will be a good addition to my workouts.

Day 2

Another night done!!!  It was much harder tonight, I could feel it in my thighs within the first few minutes... but I did do 33 minutes.

It felt so good to do this tonight, especially considering I felt so tired and drained this evening.  I am going to commit to 90 days of exercise, something that is totally doable!  It will be a bit tricky when I go to visit P, but I can makes things work.  I'll be doing what I can to mix up my workouts, so that I'm not bored.  Getting some weight training in will be key as well, but right now it's cardio I need to concentrate on.

Working my way back

It's been an uphill battle getting myself back on track, and I'm still a long way from being there.  I'm making a rule for myself, one that I will not break until I am 100% back on track.

I will not sit down to watch TV until I have completed a workout that day, or I must jump on my elliptical while I watch.

Tonight while watching Fringe I managed to get 35 minutes completed, it was much harder than it should have been.  I have two big events coming up for 2011.

The first one is that Bug wants his birthday party (5th) held at a Wave Pool, which will be in early January.  This means that I will be in a swimsuit around my ex... yuck!  I do and don't care about him seeing me in a swimsuit, but I do want to look good!  I know that I look so much better than the last time he saw me naked, and a swimsuit is as close as he will ever get to seeing me naked again... so I want to look incredible!

The second event is that I am planning a trip to Mexico for some time in April or May.  I still need to speak with my ex about dates, but I'm hopeful that something can be worked out.  I want to look rockin in a bathing suit for that trip!  I want to feel 100% comfortable sitting out on the beach, especially since I will likely be going alone.

Please come kick my ass!!

I need some serious ass kicking... I just can't seem to get my life organized these days!  I have made it sporadically for boot camp and running, but that just doesn't cut it!  My eating has been CRAP, big time serious crap.  Why am I ruining all the hard work I did last year???  I know what I need to do, I know how to do it.... so why the hell aren't I???

I am nursing a cold right now, and trying to get my house under control... but when it is all sorted out, I MUST get things moving again.  I need help... big time.

One day at a time

Ever get that workout high?  For years and years I looked and waited for it, to no avail.  Last year while going through the most stressful situation I had ever been in (Husband left me for someone 16 years younger than him), I manage to luckily find that workout high.  I would get on my elliptical every night, work my body hard, and get all the anger I had out... it was the best therapy (although I did see a counselor, knew I couldn't handle it completely on my own) I could have asked for.  It could have been that going from such a low throughout the day, to the wonderful rush of endorphins while working out is what eventually led me to find that wonderful, elusive high.  Whatever it was, has led me to this point... enjoying any and all workouts immensely!

If I can keep my momentum up, I am seriously considering working my way towards taking a personal training course.  There is an option through a local university that is online, over two years.  This would set me up perfectly for when my youngest goes to school full time.  I've been thinking long and hard over what I should look at doing when that dreaded day comes.  Whatever I do, needs to worked around the boys school schedule, as I want to be home when they finish for the day.  Something to think about anyways!

I did make it to Boot Camp today!!!  Felt wonderful to push myself!

Slowly finding my way back!

The last two weeks I've made it to Boot Camp Thursday mornings, Tuesday's just haven't worked out.  Today I made it down to the track for a run, a total of 6km, 5km running.  It was extremely hard work!  I ran for a kilometer (4.5 laps), and walked half a lap.

Tomorrow I will be attending Boot Camp, and will most likely be seriously hurting after lol.  I am looking forward to seeing progress again, losing these annoying 10lbs that have snuck up on me this last year.  I then look forward to getting my body into the best shape of it's life!

Where did the summer go??

I can't believe I am going to type this... but I haven't gone for a run since I did my 5km race in June!!!  I feel really bad for that... I hate that I didn't get any runs in this summer.  It's not to say I wasn't busy, just a different kind of busy.  I spent a total of 4.5 weeks camping with my boys, and the in between time trying to stay on top of the house and yard work.  But now that school has started back up, I have no more excuses for getting my body moving again.

I am now sitting at 147 lbs, which is 10 lbs up from where I was last year.  I am still happy with how I look, although I would much prefer to be back in the 130's.  To that end, I will start back up with my running this coming week.  Monday's, Wednesday's and Friday's I will get my runs in with the little guy in the stroller.  On Tuesdays & Thursdays I have no kids in the mornings!  To start I will join a boot camp class at the gym I just signed up at.  In a few months when I am back down, I will seek out a personal trainer to work on building muscle tone.

I refuse to allow myself to get heavy again... I do not want to have wasted all my hard work last year.